Pre-Trip Inner Thoughts

As time is getting closer and I sit here in my room at the end of my bed thinking about what is about to happen in the next three days I begin to get nervous. While getting my head wrapped around the excitement yet nervous feeling I have about leaving, I hear my son (Sebastian) cough from down the hall in his room. Ugh! I have honestly never been away from my son for a full week, especially when he's been sick. My thoughts took off once again. What if Devon (my boyfriend) can't hear him during the night and he has a bad coughing spell, what if he refuses to take his medicine while I'm gone, what if I come home from the trip and there is a hole in the wall. OMMMMGGG! Why do I think so much? OK, Ebonnie get it together. The thoughts and feelings that are boiling up under my skin gives me chills. I sat and took a deep breath in holding it for three seconds and blowing out holding it for three seconds. I think I have gotten my mind under control now except I've never been to New Orleans and I do not know what to expect. Vegas comes to mind when I think of New Orleans. So many free spirits in Vegas and you literally never know what you will run into. Seeing a guy walking down the street in a diaper caring a bottle would be considered normal. People would just continue to walk by and not thinking twice about the man. Is this what New Orleans will be like? Smelling food throughout the air. Will there be buildings surrounding the streets with people walking everywhere and not so many cars around? The street seems to be the side walk in every movie, picture, and commercial I see when it comes to New Orleans. I have no clue what to expect. My mind won’t stop going 100 miles per hour. I have no problem over thinking everything as this shows. On the flip side I do get to experience this trip with some good friends I have met through school. This kind of eases my mind because I will not be the only person there who is leaving their family for the first time. I will have people there who are very familiar and remind me of home and I’m sure that will make this week zoom by faster than I would like it to. But before I can get to the end of the week I need to back. Omg! I hope I don’t leave anything!  Jeeze, as I look around at my room coming back to reality from my thought. Looking to my right where my big picture window is in my room one last thought crossed my mind, I WILL NOT BE AROUND SNOW FOR THE NEXT WEEK! As I begin to look away, I looked down below the window and there sits my luggage empty and open just waiting for me to fill it up. First thing first. PACK!